Bravo. Still do you think that all your efforts of raising hands to seek Gods are waste? His answer comes in his own unique way for you, and the day you actually ‘see’ him that will be your unique way to experience him-that uniqueness wrongly imposed upon body forms the ego. You will not see ‘Jesus’ for sure, because mystics from all religions has ‘seen’ him. What you will see is your inner self or true reality or consciousness and after seeing you will recognise it immediately that it was known to you, how you missed till date! Every kid has lived that state in childhood that is why kids are so confident that they can do anything-it was God within.

My blessings are with you to have that experience as soon as possible.