Hasan, a Muslim seeker, used to pray daily ‘Oh God please open the door’ and Rabia, one of the greatest Mystic, used to pass daily from there. One day she slapped Hasan while he was praying and said Hasan the door is always open.
Mystics says our mind is the biggest hurdle, and it’s pseudo creation Ego is the root of all the problems. It is from my own personal experience I am sharing that ‘In intense no-mind state the no-ego state happens on its own Wu-Wei. This coincidence happens and you find the formless mystery exposed to you with door wide open.
With lots of best wishes on your belated happy birthday, please accept my gift and give it a try. It happens, if it can with me than it can happen with you too.